NotDreaming

I've got to learn to let things go. The stupidest little upset just stays with me forever. Replays over and over in my mind and I can't stop it. I try to overwrite the thoughts (like you'd overwrite data on your pc) with song lyrics, other phrases, a movie scene, lists; anything I can think of. But even after all that (trying), I still end up zeroing in right back into what I was trying to get away from. The upsetting moment (stupid or otherwise) replays on and on driving me crazy (pissing me off, and adding to the bad mood). Why does it take so long to get over it? Or anything? Wish I could be like those "easy going" kind of people. Kind of wonder though if they're really not as easy as they seem. (happy-go-lucky by day, evil masochist by night? hmmm) No way to know. Just have to deal with my own screwy self. Somehow.